i'm happy though it hurts me badly..

it was midnight, the sky was totally dark.
no star to shine it bright.
no air to refresh my night...

so I opened the radio and silently listen.
the music was softly played by then.
while I'm listening, my mind was running,
for someone i am longing.

He is the man I want, the man that i really loved.
my heart can't help but smile, whenever i saw him laugh.
But need my feelings to forgot.
don't want his way be blocked.

He is a man who loved God fearfully.
And i know what he wanted to be.
He wanted to draw to God closely,
and only i can do is support him silently.

though it hurts inside,
i tried my best to hide my heart were achingly cry,
my eyes won't make me smile.
i loved him so much, and I loved God as much.
that's why I'm letting him go, and not let my feeling show.